August172011
So, here is the long awaited moment. I’m moved in and settled in my room. I picked up my textbooks, organized my desk, and hung up all of my clothes. I’d consider it a productive day. I’m saying goodbye to my parents tomorrow morning, and then I’m off on another adventure through Columbia. I’m going to the barn at 12:30 so that I can get the tour of where everything is before Lark moves in on Thursday.
I’m actually super psyched for everything right now. I’m exhausted and should sleep soon, but it was a good day. My room-mate seems pretty cool, I think that I’ve made a few new friends; I’m a pretty content person right now.
I’m going to try to finish typing out this letter to my mentor and save it before I go to sleep. I’ve been trying to write this for a week but I’ve been far too compromised in various ways to be able to handle it. I need to do it soon though; very soon.
August132011
limpwristedgenderfuckboy asked: Hi! I'm also going to Mizzou, moving in on the 17th! I'm an incoming freshman. =)
I'd love to get to know some fellow Tumblr-ers/Mizzou students. Get to know each other? =)
Hey! Incoming freshman here too! I’m moving in on the 16th though.
There are a decent amount of mizzou kids on tumblr, honestly I’d suggest stalking the post on the Mizzou 2015 FB page thingy.
August112011
I leave on Monday.
Today I said goodbye to my friends from Payton. I’ll say goodbye to my extend family on Saturday. I’m helping my cousin move into her new apartment, and then I think we’re going out for lunch. Sunday will be my last day with my best friend Joel. I’m not positive what we’re doing. I know for sure he and Ben are going to be in the studio finishing up a few songs and then the two of us are going out.
I’m all packed with the exception of the clothes that I’ve been wearing this week that I’ll want to wash and bring with. My trunk is almost done, so Lark is almost packed too. I have his bill of health finished. I still need to fill out the boarding contract, but that’d also require me to know when he is coming down to CoMo.
All in all, I’m logistically ready for the move but mentally I just want to stay in my city.
A few friends and I went downtown last night/this morning so that I could have one last night of being a tourist in my city and admiring downtown. We spent time in Millennium Park, went to Navy Pier, and walked the lake front for a couple of hours. It was fun but thinking back, it depresses me that it would be my last night downtown until probably Christmas time. I like the city in the winter though, so, I’ll be ok.
August72011
Anonymous asked: So why do you think your mom is clinging to you? Did she have a bad experience in college?
I’m an only child so I’m sure my mother is scared of losing me. She also has some control issues so she’s scared of losing control of me.
Also, she stayed at home for college so I’m sure she’s using every on-campus horror story she’s heard to create her image of what dorm life is like.
August42011
I have 11 days until I leave Chitown. My class schedule is set, Lark has a home, and everything but my clothing is packed. All I have left to do is find a hauler for Lark and my work will be done. After I get a hauler all that I’ll have to do is deal with my family. My mother is still trying to cling to me and it’s driving me insane.
July272011
It’s at the point where I really don’t know what I want or need so I’m just boxing up the stuff I think would be nice. I’ve got all of Lark’s stuff in a box, waiting for my tack trunk to be finished, my shoes are boxed up, and I’ve got some of my personal stuff together. This whole thing is starting to feel real.
July202011
I leave for Missouri in just under 4 weeks; 26 days to be exact. This nice little gap between “It’s still a month of, I’ve got tons of time” and “oh my god, I’m leaving so soon” has me freaking out. I managed to get even more shopping for my dorm done today: sheets, crate, garbage can, desk lamp, hangers, and a robe but the logistics and shopping aren’t really what has me nervous. I’ve managed to have a pretty epic summer, despite my various challenges, and this past year has been a good one, so I’m scared to leave the relative safety of my current life to move 400 miles away from all that I love and rely on.
Lark is most likely going to end up being a security blanket for me, the one thing that I’ll still have when I leave August 15, when I’m starting classes August 22, when I’m alone in a dorm on my birthday, etc. I think that fate was kind in sending me him when she did, because I’m not good at coping with change and he’s going to be something for me to hold on to. I’m not highly social, so I’m scared that having him will give me excuses to avoid social situations.
I think that this post is a rambling way for me to get to the place where I can acknowledge that I am actually leaving Chicago and I’m leaving sooner than I’d like. I’m leaving behind people who I rely on and who I don’t know if I’ll get back when I’m home again. I’m leaving behind the places that I love which make me feel secure. I’m leaving behind my family who I need more than I’d like to admit. All I’m taking with me is my (very furry) friend Lark, a phone, and a ton of fears and baggage which I hope will be outweighed by optimism, though right now they seem to be dragging me down.
July122011
My AP Scores! While my AP Studio Art 2D Design score was a point too low to get credit, my Stats score was just right. This means that I can drop my Stats 1300 class and be down to 15 hours from 18. Thus, sanity will return to my schedule. While I’d love to have an excuse to drop my Psych class instead of Stats, the extra 3 credit hours are nice. No offense to Psych, I love the subject, but I want my Psych class a little earlier in the day for the sole reason that I want to go to a concert in Des Moines, but my Psych class will make me an hour too late to catch the band I want to see. Also, the concert is the first day of class. Bad reasons and bad decisions, I know, but it’s college.
I’m really happy about the Stats AP score though. That score make 14 hours of credit that I’m bringing in, not including the 3 hours I’d get if I took the ALECKS exam. 14-17 hours of credit coming in will make my life (and student loans) a little better.
This is totally unrelated, but just so you guys know, I’m currently blogging from my brand new MacBook which I got for college.
